15 9 / 2014
The first chapter of ALL THE RAGE by Courtney Summers was released today. (Here! http://summerscourtney.tumblr.com/post/97572455202/summerscourtney)
I reblogged it, but I needed a separate post for the feels.
The. Feels. (They are below, and they are triggery, fyi. Also spoilery? Can that be a thing for the first chapter? My sources tell me yes. SPOILERS.)
I am so excited for this book, and have been for a while, but even more now that I’ve read the first chapter. There is something to be said for a writer who can take something utterly devastating, traumatic, horrific, and make it hauntingly beautiful.
Don’t get me wrong, this is not a glorification of rape. It’s not rape for a plot point. It’s stripping away the external stuff and focusing on what’s happening inside someone, in their mind. Second by painful second and those blurry stretches of time, too.
I’m often wary of reading books that deal with sexual assault. It doesn’t stop me from doing it, but before I open the cover I’m still cautious, because I never know how badly it’s going to trigger me (It’s growth that I don’t say if it triggers me.)
But then there’s books that I relate to so hard I am left staring at the page or the screen for minutes. Because how did someone I don’t even know take something out of my head, something that happened a long time ago, and put it perfectly on the page? That’s good writing, obviously. That’s the feeling writers want to evoke from their readers. But when dealing with this, it’s a whole different level of relating.
I was eighteen the first time I was raped, twenty the last time. It’s been five years this November since I last spoke to my abuser. Since then, there’s been a lot of growth and pain and good and bad. I’m in a healthy, safe place now. But I still have so much hurt and sadness when I think about that girl almost eight years ago and how she felt.
That hurt and pain is perfectly reflected in this first chapter. It makes me want to go into the page and scoop that poor precious girl out, and be a support that she’ll no doubt desperately need. Trauma isn’t easy to write anyway, but this?
This is damn good writing.
If you are able, go read this first chapter. Go read the book when it comes out. And know that what you are reading may be fiction, but in another sense it’s entirely, utterly true.
15 9 / 2014
"I’m no longer watching television in which middle-aged men figure out how to be men. I’d rather watch shows about teenaged girls figuring out what it means to be a monster"
15 9 / 2014
modern day Animorphs AU where Tobias discovers importantbirds and is like «Okay first of all NO.»